dinner today was pretty bad.
super bored so i started msging ppl.
i ended up msging like. 3 or 4 at the same time.
got "lectured" by my uncle. ( i think he thinks i msg too much)
the service was slow and long.
the place was small and cramp.
i was stuck without anyone to talk to at the table.
dinner was pretty bad.
but the food was just as good. although they never fail to suprise us with the dishes everytime.piglets?

shared 9 small durians between 3 ppl.
so.. i ate practically 3 durians?
haha. coolio. that was my dessert to my lunch. lol.
had a pretty funny conversation with an uncle.

uncle: your brother? *poins to me and my brother*
me: yeah
uncle: wad's the age gap?
me: 8 years
uncle: * whispers to his wife* wow. must be God's grace then
me: haha. yeah.

i bet he thinks i look too old to be my brother's sister. and too young to be a mother, so. he got curios? haha. i think normally ppl will just guess and guess and walk away. but this guy actually asked me if i was his brother.
many ppl think that when the age gap is like. a long time, they think tt one of them must be an accident child. its a kind of misunderstanding that lies in many people's hearts. sometimes, when ppl tell that to me, i ask them: my and my sister, 6 years. me and my brother, 8 years. so which is an accident child? haha. that usually sends them to silence. or a random laughter perhaps?

its really just so amazing how we can judge people by such small things. recently, i've been looking at someone's project campaign: Dont Judge. i start to see how much we judge others and how much people judge us based on just small details or small items. is it just our human instinct to judge people?

this week has been busy,
and so filled with things.
test, quizes, CCA, everything.
gosh. school's really something.
it can make you miss it , and hate it.

sighs. so many things can happen within just a few days.
so many that you can hardly see carefully what you've been getting yourself into.

today, i was super blur.
finished up my xiao shuo during english + a little of time after school
i havent done my newspaper thing,
lost the whole of my amath TYS questions(all that ive done)
GEL got screwed up
and ms or is scaryy

i wanna just FLY to LA now. fly fly fly to LA.
another 2 and 1/2 months of holidays.
to see each and everyone of you, and to see how you've been doing

due to much boredom duringthe mg rocs briefing, i thought how nice it would have been if i self designed a trip to LA, then extend it a little to see them! how nice would tt be! i could have their house for homestay, and go to their school to see their way of school, and everything! why didnt i ever think of that when i could?sighs. jieyi is such a smart kid.

jieyi did a naughty thing today
and someone's gonna kill me tomorrow.
heh.

farewell turned out not too bad.
stupid person overtimed by 45 minutes, TRYing to be interesting.
seniors were satisfied(:
they loved the cake. yay.
they loved the trophies too. yay.
orderly was .. kinda .. screwed up. i forgot to give time to pray oops>.<

was kinda looking for where the tiffany's concert will be held, and how i can get to the hotel,
then i got to pulau ubin. all the memories of OBS came flooding back. oh man. miss OBS so muchh.

sighs. i feel like whining. but for no apparent reason. *whines*

forgot all about the lit test tmr. die.

finished watching IT. heh. im abit slow but. its niceee! (:

i have soo many things undone. howhowhow.

ok. i should stop blogging.

tommorow's gonna screw up like anything.
the skit will die, the worship will die, EVERYTHING will die.
jieyi will die. she's gonna screw up orderly, and screw up the worship.
oh gosh. lesley might not even go to school tmr. dieeeeeeee.

saturday is really mad. im gonna start hating saturdays really soon. rush here and there like a mad person, and go mad. sighs. so many thiings.

i quote: " i hate school. i know its only the 2nd day. i dont wanna go back"

Time, can be such an amazing thing.
it can change so many things, and make you yearn so much for something, and.. yeah. i shant elaborate.
sighs. i miss them so much. all of them changed! 3 years has been a long time. yearning and missing them so much. sighs. seeing all of them grow. so much. all of their voices deepen, and grow taller and taller. i used to be the tallest amongst them. now, im gonna be one of the shortest soon.
miss them so so very much. <33

went for 80th anniversary dinner.
seeing all the seniors come back all pretty and glamorous, seeing them change so much.
saw mrs ong! yay. she must be so happy to see her own interview on the booklet. <3.
saw weixin! she changed so much. so much more feminine now.
all the officers looked so happy.
oh yes. not to mention, i saw THAT woman in the same top, with the same horrendous croaking voice, and the same horrendous attitude. sighs. she got issues.
lol.

totally enjoyed my day today.
busy yet so fun.
<3

the hair dresser killed my hair
its dead.
horrendous.
horrible. im never going back again.
eeks.

had nice istanbul lunch.
man. the chicken roll rocks.
and the beef too! (:
went to my mum's office for fun, and one of the guys thought i was the new admin girl ya thanks
half the ppl thought i was my sister, and waved so hard by the door. lol.
i made her board not so clean anymore!
full of my scribbles.

tomorrow's gonna be a hectic day.
going church, then rush to lesley's house, then rush to The Pines.


oh gosh. ppl are gonna kill me. diee.

speechlessssssssssssssssssssssssssssss!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

oh gosh. i regret so much. i should have screamed. i should have shouted.

went to school for chatting today. haha. funny and weird at the same time.

came home to sleep.

haha. oh wells.

lipin: thanks so much for being there when i really needed you. yeps. thanks friend.
i really dunno wad i would have done if you weren't on the phone with me.
so sorry for "ohmygod"ing all along, and kinda not listening to you.
haha. all along, i heard only "slap him" haha. oh wells.
thanks so much.
<3

went back to school to teach ppl who apparently had tuition on that day, then learnt how to raise flag. haha. brings back primary school memories.
used to try to do it just a little earlier just so that Mrs Tay wont catch us cheating.
used to say in the microphone wad the prefects say every morning now.
lol. nice memories of primary school life.

caro got me earrings. nice. i should go get my ears pierced soon. lol. dun worry girl. its ok. i like it. haha. thanks. take care k?(:

did 1 page plus of zhou ji. felt super accomplished.

treated ppl drinks. haha. anything.

oh wells. holidays are coming to an end. FAST. i still have SOME homework left to do, and i ended up not completing what i've planned. haha. in the end, i didnt manage to do what my mum wanted me to. heh^^ oh wells. im just gonna. die. die a terrible death. ok i shall stop saying that.

you. you. you. dun worry so much. well, many things cannot be avoided, and things happen. either you run, or you face it. and well, to say honestly, you're not alone. even with this many issues all at the same time. (you1you2you3etc)
you should try to look at it from their point of view?
or maybe, just try to accept how things are?
OR, find solutions to the many issues.
you have these options and more. and they all have different consequences. at least to different degrees. ok? haha. you can always call me if you need anything yeah? <3

hello!(:
im back from malaysia! (ipoh, pangkor, malacca)

found out that there's actually an MGS in Ipoh their uniform sucks

walked through a 10000 year old cave, marvelled at his creations

experienced the greatest waves of my life which is actually quite normal

had really great food all along, till you're so sick of it.

had a great time shopping!

lalala. i cant remember anymore.
so tired.
zzz.

yeah, im pissed. so pissed.

im pissed cos you hit my little brother for no apparent reason you know your strength. you have your reasoning. but do you tink a seven year old would know wad you call disrespectful?

im pissed cos JUST because of your stupid cleanliness requirements, I have to go through all these. fancy mopping the stupid house, at 1.30 am. ohwadfun.

im pissed cos i'll be spending the next five days with you.

im pissed cos you're freaking unreasonable.

im pissed cos i cant hate you. i have to respect you. but do you deserve it?

grace came over today. and had instant noodles. lol.

going to malaysia tomorrow. be back on 18th or 19th. not sure.

im hungry. yes. i realise i've been eating alot thing holidays. and i feel fat. heh^^

i appeared kinda like a mad little girl infront of my neighbor at 12 midnight. (laughing at my letterbox cos i got so pissed at myself. haha. dont laugh.) for those who thinks its THAT special neighbor, yes.

shopping at vivo today was great

for once, i didnt have to bother about $ 'cos my mum was shopping right there with me. and she was in a good mood, so i got to buy wadever i want. yeah! so.. i bought many things.
but.. too bad. i didnt get my adidas jacket. gosh. $109. so ex. haha. oh wells. i bought many other things! :D jieyi is happy child with a pocket with small holes.

brunch-ed at Marche. absolutely splendid. loved the ice cream, the BREAD, EVERYTHING. next time, i shall go there for the desserts and the bread and the ICE CREAM! ohh. their mushroom soup's good too. but amanda's dad's one is still number one! (:

oooo. i just found my long lost rubber band! woots. haha. random

im leaving on thursday and i havent finished packing. sighs. i die. forgot wad to pack for holiday. packing reminds me so much of OBS. argh. i miss OBS! ok. im random again. heh^^
missing church this weekend. bleh. and i wont be in singapore for father's day! (:

i saw an ipod shuffle!!!! its only $138!!!! oh man. and mine is so screwed. i cant do anything to the songs. so. i wanted it soo much. bleh. oh wells. new camera! woots. nice nice nice. finally got a new camera. the old one is like. screwed. haha. oh wells. nicenicenice.

get well soon charis!(:

got reminded of what i've been wanting to forget all along. funny feeling eh? sighs. go away lah. we're just friends and i want to let it remain this way. you may have thought we've had something before, but. well, its over. so. remain as friends k?(:

back from church camp
only went to help for 1 day. my, it was really fun.
gosh. the kids were really mad. i think my group can win best screamer award. its no wonder the "santan" keeps attacking my kids. lol. i think my kids are really cute. and i keep screaming at them.and catching little kids. heh^^. but they are SOOOO cute. ^^
lol. i think if i actually stayed for the whole camp, it would have been so fun. haha. i heard tt practically half of the church was at the camp. lol. oh wells.
there was this child who was, i think, a little mentally retarded. but in any case, he was really cute. he was really caring, but i always miss the chance of saying bye to him. he saw me today and he looked so happy to see me. XD. lol. he was soo cute. still with the same blue cap, still as caring and cute. he really came to hug me when he was afraid of the "satan"!! lol. super cute. (he calls me mummy! oh gosh. the guys will never let this rest.)
haha. the teachers were very nice and let me visit!heh^^ all the kids were all soo cute.
im overwhelmed by cuteness today
lol

i'll be leaving next thursday till next next monday. 14th june till 18th june.
byeee

hello!
today was. boring
went to the market. gosh. i really havent been there for a long time.
all the aunties and uncles are like " your grandchild? wow. so big already! " (in hokkien of course) haha. oh wells.
lalala.
im bored.
and im overwhelmed by despo-ness

i wanna be a kid now. and just sit around the stone. bleh. i wanna be a kid.
XD

boo.
lalala. people owe me money. haha.
i dun wanna go back to school everyday for a few hours here and there
get so much on my nerves, especially when i go back to school for a reason and tt reason is 1 hours late. omg. AN HOUR. sighs.wad type of attitude is tt? blehh

i love the song "More Than Life". XD super nice. heh^^

my skin's peeling! oh gosh. stop peeling!

going back to school tmr. and. i cant find the long ruler. sheesh. cant even find a long ruler in my house.

was at taka today, walking around with a 1m long board looking like an idiot. haha. i actually forgot there's an art friend there! XD then i saw someone with the plastic bag. haha. nice food there!!! i found a venezia. lol. cos i saw someone eating its ice cream. lol. then i had roti prata with sausage? i met clarissa there too. haha. ohwells.


randomness. yes.

Recently I overheard a father and daughter in their last moments together. They had announced her departure and standing near the security gate, they hugged and he said, "I love you. I wish you enough." She in turn said, "Daddy, our life together has been more than enough. Your love is all I ever needed. I wish you enough, too, Daddy."

They kissed and she left. He walked over toward the window where I was seated. Standing there I could see he wanted and needed to cry. I tried not to intrude on his privacy, but he welcomed me in by asking, "Did you ever say goodbye to someone knowing it would be forever?"

"Yes, I have," I replied. Saying that brought back memories I had of expressing my love and appreciation for all my Dad had done for me. Recognizing that his days were limited, I took the time to tell him face to face how much he meant to me.

So I knew what this man experiencing.

"Forgive me for asking, but why is this a forever goodbye?" I asked.

"I am old and she lives much too far away. I have challenges ahead and the reality is, the next trip back would be for my funeral," he said.

"When you were saying goodbye I heard you say, "I wish you enough." May I ask what that means?"

He began to smile. "That's a wish that has been handed down from other generations. My parents used to say it to everyone." He paused for a moment and looking up as if trying to remember it in detail, he smiled even more."When we said 'I wish you enough,' we were wanting the other person to have a life filled with just enough good things to sustain them," he continued and then turning toward me he shared the following as if he
were reciting it from memory.

"I wish you enough sun to keep your attitude bright.
I wish you enough rain to appreciate the sun more.
I wish you enough happiness to keep your spirit alive.
I wish you enough pain so that the smallest joys in life appear much
bigger.
I wish you enough gain to satisfy your wanting.
I wish you enough loss to appreciate all that you possess.
I wish enough "Hello's" to get you through the final "Goodbye."

He then began to sob and walked away.

- Bod Perks

i feel accomplished! yeah!(:
woots. cheng jie yi rocks! yay.

ohh. i got a whole lot of new stuff cos i went shopping. spent more than 100 bucks. but they're all WORTH IT! XD wonder how ppl can hate shopping. lol. woots. new shoes, bag, cap, etc. yay me.

lalala. im deprived of songs. so sick of all the songs i have in my com. no nice lyrics. or is it just me?

today is a science-y day. filled with science! 4 hours of mad physics. i think the ppl under ms cheong's even worse. 8 hours throughout the whole week?! madness.

you were so filled with makeup. almost as if you werent the one there at all. half of me wants to believe that you werent the one lying in there. that half of me wants to see you again, patting me so hard on the back saying good job. yet, the other half knows that you're not suffering anymore. that you're in a much better place now, away from this painful body. you cared so much for every student, with no strings attached, and loved each and every one of us. you were suppose to be really happy when you get the news. but you never got it.
sighs. well, you;re in a better place now. <3